Weird Can’t Sleep Question:
that day I hit my head on a mountain, was I the same before and after?
you knew me best.
shannon too? curt?
did I forget something?
I think my hearing got worse
well, maybe i’ve always had a hard time hearing
that’s why i talk too loud
things sound differently in my head
that’s why i like step dancing
rhythms low and close to my body so i can feel
the vibrations
it’s why i like sign language
i can see quite well
but my ears they struggle
and I hear a sound like electricity
all the time
I can hear if the tv is on in the other room
so maybe it’s not that i’m hard of hearing…
it’s just that the world is too loud
and I sometimes feel
like I need to shout to be heard
im so small
barely five feet tall
I dropped below 100 lbs the other day
even though i try to eat more fat
i went from vegetarian to carnivore
(plus veg rice and some fruit
and of course treats)
and maybe my body is going into
ketosis as I make the
appetite transition
though I felt better in Beijing
sometimes
sometimes I felt like I was seeking a cheap thrill
I was looking for time to kill
i was dancing my nights away
and spending saturday mornings kickboxing
in the forest near the Temple of Heaven
those perfectly aligned pines guided my feet
back to the excessively packed subway line 5 the yellow one
for the 45 minute ride with one transfer to my station
and it only cost a few kuai.
and got some kickass people watching done
along the way
and had my bag checked at every entrance
by a herd of security guards
but i dont got nothing to hide
so i glide on by
and hop on the train near the ancient bell tower
my landmark guiding me home
right near
houhai
with the bridges
ktv
and lights
and those red candied fruit sticks 🌹🍬
I’m gonna eat more rice.
I think I forgot something important.
I hope everyone out there is feeling happy tonight.
and hopefully most people are sleeping
except I know people like chef Mike
at the SA detroit harbor light house
who sometimes get to work at 3:45
on thanksgiving morning to help
prepare
a hot thanksgiving feast
for 3000 people in the streets.
I’ll try to get there at 7
we gotta make mashed potatoes for 3000 genuinely hungry people and only a miracle will do it.
in shallah